The Darkness Within

Pitter patter pitter patter
There goes the rain
And here I am sitting in the dark
Looking around for something
Something to distract my thoughts
Anything, anything at all...but nothing

Have you ever talked to yourself
Whether out loud or in your head
Have you ever thought whether that's normal
Or madness.....

Scratch scratch scratch
It is itchy all over
Scratch scratch scratch
Have I taken a shower
Scratch scratch scratch
I can smell the blood
Nice....

Bitch
Unreasonable
Patronising
Malicious
Where's my sense of worth?
No affirmation, no assurances
Who am I?

String of words keep popping up in my head
All negative
It was like I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel
Swallowed into spirals of darkness
Darkness within myself

Wild flailings to try to grasp on something
Hope perhaps...
Maybe faith....
Or love.....
And I see a sweet little angel
Swooping down to my rescue

The irony of it all
The demon has become an angel
The angel was the demon
They have reversed roles so naturally
I can't start to comprehend